Whoa...

After age 6, things start getting more complicated. There are more responsibilities, relationships and troubles. I look back at childhood pictures and I think, children are so naive and happy.. but then i think - being happy as a kid is a whole different task than it is for an adult. As an adult, you have to set worries aside and learn how to become happy again while knowing that more complications are to come. It seems like childhood is something we all carry with us but don't show because we all want to seem like knowledgeable and responsible adults. Showing childishness could be a weakness in some aspects. But then, all of a sudden I'm 20 years old and having a great time with my friends, and the camera captures something hidden.. childlike joy. I have the same smile, the same dimples, and the same expression with my head cocked slightly to the right. You know, I act silly sometimes on purpose, to lighten things up.. but when it comes to more serious situations, i try as much as possibly to suppress emotional outbursts and demands that I could get away with as a child. I just find it very interesting that after 14 years of challenges, i'm able to have that same expression. It's times like this that I really can appreciate my life :-)